Fragments

Because you are a vain chocolate.

Blue and Pink

Crunch you.

With the bestfriend.

Grainy alone.

Adrenaline.

I'll finish you in time.

Eating alone.

I wish I was.

Inconsistency

Because of what happened today, I realized things and made up for them. You know, I am really a spontaneous person and I seldom do things--the normal and expected things people do.

I had this chat with my mom just today and told her how things are going and all. But suddenly I showed a slight hint of affection by saying, "I love you," and all of a sudden she says, "Are you sure that is for me? Coz maybe there's someone else." DEMMIT. It's like a big bitch-slap on my face that all I want to do is throw something, anything that I can get hold of right now. RIGHT NOW.

So, I shut myself down again.

You know what's hard in trying? People don't see it because they think you are not capable to do so. It's because they're stuck inside that lil piece of thing inside their minds about you. But who knows? You yourself gave them that impression and sometimes, they're just too insensitive to give you a chance.

Oh, speaking of, I am too is an insensitive bitch. So what would I know about these things, anyway?

But here's the thing, no matter how hard you try, if people have that impression on you from the first place, I think that's just it. They'll ignore that move of yours and keep you hanging.

Here's another thing, my mom told me she knows me well. Hell yeah, she does. But I think, not much.

It's Not That Bad Doing Things Alone

Last Tuesday, I woke up around 7am to at least prove to myself that I can be wide-awake on an early time during my day off. Yes, last Tuesday was my day off! Yay for days off! I actually did some errands for my mom and then rewarded myself with a date...with myself. Hehe. Nah, sounds lonesome, eh? Hell yeah it is of some sort but I really got rid of it since I've been doing stuff all alone. Apparently, I've been dealing with some stuff by myself and perhaps, I dealt them just the way they're meant to be dealt with.

Anyway, I took a shot of doing a productive day off. With one day for a breaktime, how could you waste it on something you yourself won't be happy with? So I took off around 11am from the apartment, did the errand for my mom and went straight to Megamall for my lunch.

Lunch. I went to Sbarro for a rewarding pizza. Nah, it sounds cliche but whatever. I really never had the time to decide what to eat not until I convinced myself that I am craving for some pizza. Luckily, it was also our payday so what else can I not do?

Watched 'The Lorax'. Yeah, watching a movie on the big screen was one of the things on my bucket list for that day. It was fun watching a kid's movie, I feel like a kid again though. I realized after watching the film, there were only less than 15 people inside the cinema. But I felt like I was alone, owning the whole massive place and screen in front of me.

Had my hair cut. I really was meaning to cut my hair coz it has outgrown. So I decided to find a decent salon and trimmed down the hair that has been long enough for 3 months (knowing that it has been always on a pixie cut since mid last year, you can just imagine how long it could be). Hehe.

Photo courtesy of Mia Robles

Went to Timezone. Played the 'hand dance' game. I really don't know what it was called but, whatever. I was also desperate to find a playmate for the Air Hockey game but the machine's malfunctioning. So I decided to try the basketball thing for four sets. Next was the car racing game, the arcade and the karaoke. It was fun. I had fun.

Grocery shopped. Did some not-so-quick grocery shopping for my daily and quick needs. The guy attendants were pleasant to deal with. And they were attentive. And they dance.

Anyhow, I feel so proud of myself for doing things on my own. Looking back, I have realized that I have gone through this far because I took risks and somehow, those paid off. It may have caused some emotional distress on me (just a bit) but yeah, I think it is really part of the whole "being independent" process. And that I think, is a mature trait.

I know we all need to have 'someone' to talk to or eat with or laugh with sometimes. But at some point, only you yourself can make yourself happy. In any choice, circumstance or challenge it may be, you yourself can still decide what's best for yourself. After all, it's not that bad doing things alone.

:)

To whom it may concern, I just might (actually) like you

In fact it prompts me whenever you send me messages on Facebook. I jolt whenever I see that small chat-window with your name on it, and the green tiny circle that means you are online. A curve on my lips suddenly forms, unconciously.

It saddens me whenever I don't see you online, or you don't reply to my recent message or if I don't see that tiny green thing beside your name. I am always wondering who you might be with that time or who you are talking to at that point.

Honestly, when you accidentally typed in the wrong message with a different girl's name in it, I felt bad. But of course, I know it wasn't intentional but I knew that from that time your attention was with another woman. I knew that you were just staying up because you were bored and you just want to have some conversations with people just to kill time and do your thing while online. How selfish and foolish I am to think that way either but, it marked a pang somewhere. *sigh* I knew it. Or maybe I just didn't know you well yet. Yes, I don't know you well enough.

Maybe when the time comes that I'll be around in the same place where you've been right now, I hope we can have real conversations--not just online real conversations--but personal and more vivid ones.

I think I want to keep some memories with you.

I just want to know you more, that's it.

And I think, I just might (actually) like you.

"I'm still waiting patiently."

Quick Recap. Wrap. Tadah.

Hey. Been busy for the past few days that I haven't updated this blog again. I actually don't wanna miss a thing but my work demands a lot of time (and patience) so just bear with my shortcomings, eh? So, shall we?

Hokeeeyy. Last January 23 was Chinese New Year. Look who visited us in the store!

And on that same day, it's my brother Jason's 21st birthday. I think it's his first birthday that I was away. Oh well brother, I'm gonna make up to you sometime. :)

We've also been working our asses off in the store to reach our goals per day as well the end-month goal for us to hit incentives. Of course, who wouldn't want to? Everyone just seems to be busy especially when the end of the month approaches. Been working and dealing with client orders since then and still counting. Sometimes, I end up having an overtime just to finish a bunch of orders to avoid them piling up the schedule and of course, delays.

Also last weekend (Saturday), I shifted in our Fort branch. I was at two stores at one day! Imagine I shifted in GB5 in the morning, had a family shoot of 6, when my manager told me that the Fort branch needed back-up coz one of their photogs got sick and unfortunately, can't come in. Knowing this, I immediately took my lunch (good thing it was there just in time) and headed to Fort. I had two shoots there. Good thing my shift paid off. Afterwards, I went straight to Cuneta Astrodome to witness the Liveloud 2012 Concert.

Face Paint: The Highstreet Way

I was happy to be there. No, the word is: overwhelmed. I realized how much I missed worshiping, singing songs with all my heart. I actually miss God and realized that I have been drifting away slowly. I was also glad to see my fellow YFCs from Cebu who flew just to attend the concert.

With future lawyer, KC

YFC Kusugbo!

I also happened to shift in MOA the next day (Sunday) to fill-in to their photogs who got sick. Oh, look how healthy I am! LOL. Kidding.

And then for this weekend, we had our Mustache Day dress-up/theme by which all of us will be wearing a mustache. Fatima made one for me as I don't know how to do so. Haha!

The Bigotilyos!

I has ze blue mustache!

I hope tomorrow's gonna be one awesome day. It's the last weekend of the month and I hope it's gonna be our fulfillment day! WOOOOT! Stay postive!!! :)

That's a wrap!

New Team for New Year

So this post is solely dedicated to my new team mates, the lovely ladies of Greenbelt 5: Abi, Bianca & yours truly. Before I go on, I'd like to say that I have been to different branches within the company's stores here in Manila and so far, I like staying to all of them. I mean, of course, I am obliged to be only at one store but the fact that I've shifted from one store to another gives me this attachment to people, thus, the attachment with my workmates. Not mentioning the attachment I have with my clients.

Anyway, moving on, I'd like to share how I knew Bianca and Abi.

Let's start with Bianca.

I first met her when I shifted at Rockwell, and she was the one in-charge since she's training to be an assistant manager at that time. At first, I thought she was a snobbish woman, but mind you, she really was. Just kidding! Haha (Loveyou, Biancuuurrr!). She was fun to be with and at times loud (but not really). I immediately had this "at-ease" feeling so we're good.

Bianca B: The Queen B

I actually was happy when I learned that we had common grounds when it comes to music, celebrity crushes, books, boys, relationships, tv series (New Girl!) and some other stuff. I was even happier when I knew that she fancies Joseph Gordon-Levitt. Haha! I can't forget that day when we were just screaming and giggling while watching Joe and Zooey's video. Haha! From then on, I am now able to share to her some part of my life, the least.

By the way, she's my manager. Pretty, young and dynamic, ayt? *wink*

Now, it's Abi's turn.

Pretty Abigail

I really find this girl beautiful. She's charming, sweet and nice. I think if a guy courts her, he should prove to her that he's worth it. Just saying.

Anyhow, I met Abi when MoA and Greenbelt 5 had this despedida party for one of our team mates who will be transferred to another store. I actually heard of Abi already but I only got to meet her the night we had that videoke thing with the girls. She actually has a nice voice too, not mentioning that she's really into make up. I actually got one of m influences from her to wear make-up because whenever I go to work, she really encourages me to fix myself. See how kikay she is? Hahaha!

I transferred to GB5 on Abi's birthday, which happens to become a memorable one.

Greenbelt 5 girls! <3

Somehow, I like this team so far even though I just recently worked with them. I know that these girls are very much unique in their own way and that they have their own capacities and capabilities to do things. Everyday, I learn so much from people I meet and just like these girls, I will also learn from them. =)

Braved Divisoria for Make-Up

And since it's our day-off, I and Glen went to Divi for some cheap finds. We were told by Bujin (actually it was Glen), that she found this fancy stall at a Divisoria mall, selling original make-ups on a less price. But with that, there might be some factory defects or cracks on some of them. But on the other hand, we still pursued it, not mentioning that it's my first time to go to Divisoria.

I actually was able to buy cheap goodies.

Here they are:

A dress, 2 sets of 3 pairs of socks, a lipstick, a mascara,

an eye shadow set, a brush all from MAC, a loose sleeveless top,

a camera-pendant necklace, a rubix cube, a domino and

a floral dress.

Speakers for Marcus

It was kind of a rough day, because the rain poured when we just arrived there and the noise pollution the traffic jam gives and the nasty pollution that has been degrading our respiratory cycle. Umfh.

But somehow, it is still worth it. I think I'll go back there and prepare a plan ahead.

I have to hit the sheets now. Night, love.